My “I deserve this” mentality led to trouble
Hi all
Twice in one day…oy, vey what a day. It started off well despite the fact that i had to have my car towed last night and was carless today. I’m off work this week and so was cleaning my apt. doing laundry and making chicken soup from scratch…and it was snowing. So, it was fine. I got news that the car was fixed and so I walked to get it 3 miles in the snow …I’ve walked to town before but never in snow and this was a little further. So, after I picked up the car I went to the supermarket went in for dish detergent and came out with that and a bag of kisses which I proceeded to eat tonight….all night long while also having soup. So today’s meals looke something like this:
Breakfast: Light wasa crisp, 1 oz low fat cheddar, apple, coffee
lunch: salad, chicken breast, low fat dressing
dinner: bowl of soup, skim milk and BAG of KISSES!!!!! Ugh
I now feel sick to my stomach needless to say and ashamed. On some level I think I felt I deserved those %###@# kisses because of my three mile walk in the snow…or did I just go on autopilot the way I always do?
Thanks for letting me vent.
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You had a bad night. We all have them. The good thing is you didn’t lie about it. You held yourself accountable and faced it head on. What you might do next time is decide on a snack you could buy before you go to the store. Such as a single cupcake or something. That way you aren’t deprived yet you aren’t eating an entire bag.
Don’t get down on yourself! You are doing great!
Sorry to have missed this a few days ago. The i deserve this thing gets me, too, although i have to say it has changed over the last few weeks which is nice and i feel more deserving of tea and things like that. i still have my “popcorn night”and last night was much more controlled than last week. i say that to say, it will come. this is a process and we go through different stages. keep at it!