Facing the Void not filling it
Still having trouble not filling the void with food especially between 4-9 pm. I know that I am eating becasue of something, feelings most likely and why I can’t just sit with them instead of eating over them is something I am continually trying to figure out. I am reading a book by Pema Chodron, a Buddhist nun, called Starting where you are and its all about the void that everyone has inside of them and how western society deals with it: we eat it, be too busy it, shop it….instead of confronting and embracing it at least I think that’s what she’s saying. Knowing it and doing it are two different things and I am very good at learning, not always so good at actually doing.
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I know exactly what you mean….exactly. My night time beast was so bad that I actually found myself having a talk with myself in the car on the way to work this morning.
“Kelly, I don’t know what your problem is, and why you feel the need to eat endlessly at night, but you must stop this. You have to. You can’t keep starting over and hoping for miracles.”
I’ve been pretty good today…and finally exercised a bit of self-control.
It’s worth a shot…
i hear you on the nights and on the knowing and not doing. something has finally shifted and i am doing more. there was this point recently of really taking myself seriously, beginning to value myself, and sprouting hope for change. those were all pretty new and sure do help! you can and will do it, maybe you are leading up to your change and soon you will see the moments that you resist the urge to fill the void, quiet the feelings,or ask the emptiness to change…be well!
Maybe you should work on your positive side for a bit. Such as Saying to yourself. This week between 4-9 pm when i want to eat I’m going to drink lots of water and dance around to my favorite music. Or When I want to eat between 4-9pm I’m going to put on my favorite workout tape. Also Just fill the fridge with carrots and other veggies already cut and make them the first things you see when you open the fridge that way you reach for them first!!
Hugs to you!