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It hit home yesterday as I sat in a doctor’s office because of back spasms and had to say my weight out loud how ashamed I am of myself because of my weight.  I’ve been having back problems in the past couple of years and have always attributed them to poor posture or most recently bad posture on the elipical machine, but in reality I probably wouldn’t have as many issues if I didn’t carry so much extra weight on my body…d(90% of my weight is in the middle

Yesterday I had a bit of pity party for myself because of my back spasms, but this morning I once again accept that I’ve gotten myself into this situation because of the way I use food to comfort myself when any negative emotion arises…I don’t binge when I’m at peace or feeling good about life or myself, but when negative or stressed.

So, for now I just need to keep trying.