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Last night was not one of my better nights to say the least.  I stayed inside all day and watched falling snow and then went out took a short walk which unfortunately ended up at the 7-11 where I purchased a box of pop’ems and proceeded to pop half of the box into my mouth.  Then I threw the rest away in disgust and despair.  However, when I woke up this am I just put last night behind me and concentrated on making this a positive day.  On the postiive side:  exercised by going to the gym and doing a little snow shoeing and ate well today so far.  So, it was a better day and what vexed me so yesterday has subsided today.  Things pass even when we’re swamped by negative emotions…they pass.  Good lesson learned.

I can’t seem to get through a day “perfectly”…I always seem to veer off course at some point and that is truly maddening.  I am keeping track of everything I eat, but perfection is certainly elusive.  But the times I do get off track I’m not veering that far off course so that is something positive.  I did go to the gym and that was a good thing.    I guess the point is not perfection but “good enough” and to keep trying and not give up and not use it as an excuse to binge.

I almost didn’t go to the gym today and then thought of the Nike slogan “Just do it” so I did.  It is so easy to talk myself out of doing something good for myself like exercise or eating properly.  But, it just has to become a habit.  I try and work out 3x a week but there are times that I drop to 1x a week usually when I’m stressed about work or school.  I know that exercising is good for stress so why when I am stressed do I automatically go towards the couch, the tv. and food?  So, the best thing for me to do so far is to just do it.

The holidays are kind of tough at times and I’m not sure why..being single doesn’t bother me most of the year but it bothers me at the holidays. But I’ve decided to focus on what I have to be grateful for and doing this every day helps put my life in perspective. When the whiner in my head starts going I look at the list that I made that morning and it helps and I’m trying to remember that food solves nothing!